Friday, March 8, 2013

What openness means to me

I am participating again the the Open Adoption Roundtable this one is about what openness means to me.

What openness means to me is:

More love.
More love for all of us. We all love Kai, but then we also love each other. We are invested in Kai's birth  parents lives. We want them to thrive and when they do we celebrate. We love them and want to best for them.

Access to important information.
Just the other day Kai had an eye doctor appointment. It was so awesome to be able to email his birth family and get the low down on their vision history before going to that appointment.

Meaningful relationships with Kai's family and people he can ask questions of as he grows older.
Knowing that we can ask questions as they come up, about family history or whatever. For Kai to be able to ask the "whys" directly to the people who made the choice to place him with us. It's one thing for us to tell him how loved he is, it's another thing for him to experience it and be told by his birth family. Some things are just more meaningful coming straight from the source.

I am so thankful we have an open adoption. Before we were living it I worried how it might be, but now that we have Kai in our lives and our relationship with his birth family evolves I am just grateful. Because I know as he grows up he will always know how much we all love him and as questions arise there will always be someone he can go to for answers. It's simply a blessing in every way.

Holy toddler craziness

Ok, so everybody talks about toddlers and how they can be so tough. I have been cruising along thinking I somehow got off easy because although Kai can have his moments, for the most part he is a very sweet boy. Enter the last couple weeks and I think my child has been possessed by aliens. No joke it's like I don't recognize him. There has been ALOT of whining and crying about pretty much everything. He's been throwing things, kicking me...clearly there is some boundary testing going on right now.

It's been tough to say the least.

Daddy and I have had lots of conversations and have a new game plan, but holy moly someone please rescue me from toddler hell quick before I lose my mind!

Thank god he's so adorable.

Monday, March 4, 2013

Leap of faith

Hope painting by me, 
created in acrylic and glitter, 
inspired by the idea that hope leads to transformation

I took a huge leap of faith the other day. The kind that requires holding your breath and jumping in. I made a commitment to something both psychologically and financially that I hope will help lead the way to bringing my dreams to life. Ever since I did it I have been going back and forth between doing a little happy dance (including high fives with myself) and completely freaking out.

This particular leap of faith is directly related to my dreams of making a living from my art work. Although some would argue I already do that with my graphic design business, this is more focused on hand made art, the kind that truly feeds my soul.

I've talked about it here before how fear has held me back in this area. There is something so scary about truly investing in a dream I have wanted and held close for so long.

What if I try and fail?
What if I'm not good enough?
What if I hate it?

What I've realized is I have spent enough time wondering about all these things - planning, sketching, dreaming, hoping and not REALLY doing. Hence my word for this year - ACTION! No more waiting, no more excuses. It's time to go for it. Fear be damned, I've got this. I won't lie it feels uncomfortable and really vulnerable, but I am doing it anyway.

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Get Real - Some weeks are easier than others

Sometimes life is a wild ride.

No joke, this week was a doozy. 

We went to the doctor for the little man due to a lingering cough and ended up coming home with an inhaler.

We went to the eye doctor and came home with a prescription for glasses for the same little guy who happens to be just shy of 2 1/2.

Don't get me wrong, toddlers in glasses may be the cutest thing I've ever seen in my life, but I've had glasses since I was 6 and they are not always the most convenient thing to deal with.

That same little guy touched the side of his hand to a hot pan on accident. It didn't even really burn him but it scared the f*ck out of me and him both.

My husband is working all weekend, which means come next Friday he will have worked 12 days straight, so needless to say when he comes home in the evenings he is exhausted (i.e. no evening breather for mommy).

Thanks daddy for working so hard for our family! We love you!

Then to top it all off today while we were driving Kai's window was down and he was complaining about it being too windy, so I rolled it up and glanced back at him only to see his finger was in the window.
No joke I rolled his little finger up in.the.window.

He is ok, one finger is a little bruised but nothing serious, thank goodness!

Poor little buddy can't seem to catch a break this week. 

A small silver lining to the week from hell, last night as we were walking out of the grocery store the adorable little Girls Scouts gave a us a free box of cookies that had been paid for by the person before us! It was just the right thing at just the right time.

Just goes to show you, those small acts of kindess can go a long way to making someones day (or week) a little brighter. Thanks anonymous cookie donor, they were delicious!

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Giving thanks

I couldn't be more thankful for this little turkey :) Love him like crazy!


Monday, October 22, 2012

Love it! Rookie Mom Link Love

I'm SO excited Rookie Moms shared a link to my photo today on facebook! Woot! Woot!

Kai decided to be an orange cone this year for Halloween so I whipped up his costume. My mom was always sewing something up for me, either Halloween costumes or dresses for a dance. You name it. I love being able to carry on the tradition.

Plus, you have to admit he does make a pretty cute orange cone :)

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Get Real - Sometimes mama needs a break

Sometimes I love every minute of my day. Other times I can't wait for naptime! I'll admit it makes me feel a little guilty, but the constant noise and movement that comes along with a toddler can be exhausting!

This photo from a recent photobooth session pretty much sums it up (little jumper!) - it's either ON or OFF around here.

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